Story pitching today. I'm nervous, off course i'm . Well, overall i still get a lousy grade . Mr. Zo told me that i'm lack of ideas for my story and weak too. But it's true, this story i had written was really quite lousy. Ya, it's true! Okay, I need to buck up seriously. Two words : BUCK UP , can i really do so? Until now, I still don't know why i'm choosing this course? Doesn't even related for my future job and i won't be working in this line . I'm seriously don't know what i wants, till now i'm asking myself what/where is my expectation, I can't even see my expectation there and i can't even speak up for myself. Three words : "I Don't Know". Doesn't really help me at all . SIGHHHHS ! What i'm hoping that i could get 3 for GPA this term, could i ? Can i ?
What am i bothering is my GPA, if i couldn't get my expectation for my GPA, how am i hoping to go into a polytecnic if i'm not study hard for it. I tells myself for times that i'm really hoping to go into a Poly but while seeing my suck GPA. My mind telling me that "I'm lost hope". Among my close friends, i'm only one getting lousy grade. I feels so awkward while telling my friends / classmates about how suck my grade is, i feels so lost somehow and i don't dare to face it to everybody. Because i knows they are always "Better than me". Sometime if i could hide, i better hide from the reality. I feels so much *EMBARASSED and LOSS OF FACE * ! If this time i really don't help myself, i'm really feeling *EMBARASSED and LOSS OF FACE *
I WANT TO BE BETTER. I NEED MOTIVATION TO STUDY, CAN YOU GUY HELP ME TOO ?
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